I thought I’d have a short ramble about my blog. Honestly, what it has become is far off from my initial intent. I simply wanted a place to write about life a bit-topics near to my heart like all things Quaker, home school, nature and good old honest transparency about chronic illness and faith. I wanted to share peaceful photos for my family. I even thought eventually that I’d offer some speech articulation downloads for free to home schoolers and then push myself to write that Charlotte Mason style Speech and Language book I’ve thought about for years. Sounded reasonable, but life keeps getting in the way.
I remind myself that the internet world is secondary to real life and that some months I may post once and other months more frequently and I need to be ok with that. For a while there, I felt I’d write more Quaker posts as I was feeling the need to respond to other conversations else where and explore my own. But I am not totally taken in by this Quaker blog-o-sphere thing. It gets very heavy and a day or so will go by where I actually miss my own experience of connecting with God due to reading and thinking about Quaker issues. Not good..... So, I don’t think I am a Quaker blogger, but a blogger who happens to consider herself Quaker and not an intellectual one at that! The truth is some days when I am feeling up to it, I want to be a big kid, lay on the floor and play with my kids and get giddy or go outdoors and get good and dirty in nature rather than all that. Then when night falls I want to enjoy watching the stars and moon out my window here and listen to music.
Regardless, I may keep writing as it is a good outlet now that I can’t talk as much as I’d like. So, the rough draft to volume one I attempted of my book is scattered across my bedroom floor. I just got done using it with my youngest daughter. It is seasonal, so if I had a fire lit under me, I’d now be on volume two which would focus its story around the next season. Needless to say, I’m lethargic. The thought of it makes me weak. Really. God just may intend that I leave that chapter of my life (my career) behind for good. I think I am ok with that now.
I’ve felt a strong leading for a few months now to spend more time on our home school and family life and not so much being plugged into the computer, but I do not want to totally give up blogging and I’ll tell you why. I had no idea how it would widen my world. I had no clue that I’d actually have even one reader. I enjoy the friendships that I’ve made and they’ve come as a surprise to me. I look forward to reading each of your blogs when I see a new one displayed on my page here. I love hearing about your lives. So, if you will bear with me, I will continue writing when I can and my range of topics will be unpredictable, like my life here these days. I will try to remember, however, that I still have a blog.