Monday, May 10, 2010

Oh Right, I Have a Blog

I thought I’d have a short ramble about my blog. Honestly, what it has become is far off from my initial intent. I simply wanted a place to write about life a bit-topics near to my heart like all things Quaker, home school, nature and good old honest transparency about chronic illness and faith. I wanted to share peaceful photos for my family. I even thought eventually that I’d offer some speech articulation downloads for free to home schoolers and then push myself to write that Charlotte Mason style Speech and Language book I’ve thought about for years. Sounded reasonable, but life keeps getting in the way.

I remind myself that the internet world is secondary to real life and that some months I may post once and other months more frequently and I need to be ok with that. For a while there, I felt I’d write more Quaker posts as I was feeling the need to respond to other conversations else where and explore my own. But I am not totally taken in by this Quaker blog-o-sphere thing. It gets very heavy and a day or so will go by where I actually miss my own experience of connecting with God due to reading and thinking about Quaker issues. Not good..... So, I don’t think I am a Quaker blogger, but a blogger who happens to consider herself Quaker and not an intellectual one at that! The truth is some days when I am feeling up to it, I want to be a big kid, lay on the floor and play with my kids and get giddy or go outdoors and get good and dirty in nature rather than all that. Then when night falls I want to enjoy watching the stars and moon out my window here and listen to music.

Regardless, I may keep writing as it is a good outlet now that I can’t talk as much as I’d like. So, the rough draft to volume one I attempted of my book is scattered across my bedroom floor. I just got done using it with my youngest daughter. It is seasonal, so if I had a fire lit under me, I’d now be on volume two which would focus its story around the next season. Needless to say, I’m lethargic. The thought of it makes me weak. Really. God just may intend that I leave that chapter of my life (my career) behind for good. I think I am ok with that now.

I’ve felt a strong leading for a few months now to spend more time on our home school and family life and not so much being plugged into the computer, but I do not want to totally give up blogging and I’ll tell you why. I had no idea how it would widen my world. I had no clue that I’d actually have even one reader. I enjoy the friendships that I’ve made and they’ve come as a surprise to me. I look forward to reading each of your blogs when I see a new one displayed on my page here. I love hearing about your lives. So, if you will bear with me, I will continue writing when I can and my range of topics will be unpredictable, like my life here these days. I will try to remember, however, that I still have a blog.

5 comments:

Heather said...

Well, I'd miss you if you weren't here ;)

I must remember my blog one of these days....

Ganeida said...

I found unexpected friendships & I cherish them because I don't have those IRL. I am not a heavy profound Quaker blogger. I like to keep it light & as the Spirit leads ~ & about a variety of things because God is a God of variety & all work, no play makes this Jill a very dull girl indeed. Life & Spirit intertwine for me so writing about my daffy cats is as spiritual as writing a well thought out sermon ~ & probably speaks more profoundly to people,that being the way my life generally pans out.

Renee said...

Hi Jan Lyn
I was so excited to read your latest post...and as usual you have given me insights into my need to connect with the internet too much...Being alone a lot of the time and not able to be on the phone much has been so hard adn the internet is my connection with the world...BUT it does not take the place of real life as you say....So I am starting to limit my time online too and find more peace with my solitude...Bless you friend for your comment to me and I look forward to hearing from you and reading yours posts however few and far between they are! It makes them more precious!

Jan Lyn said...

Oh Renee how I understand since my voice difficulties and illness, my email and internet really contains much of my community and support. I use it in place of my phone as well. It is sweet to see you in this place and I think of you often....

All of you. Thanks for your words of wisdom, Ganeida. I believe that too...all of life really is spiritual. Besides, I love hearing about your cat stories!


Good to 'see' you dear Heather. Take your time with that blog..I truly understand. oxo

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